When you realize you’re afraid of someone you love is like crossing the bridge to silent hill. Fog covers up everything; your smiles, his kindness, your feelings for each other. With every step you take, your anxiety goes with you. You waver with each action, afraid you’ll step into a land mine and set everything into chaos. When the fog clears and you discover everything, you’ll want to make a wish and go back in time before you stared at the devil behind his eyes.
So i close my eyes and pretend this is all a dream.
Insanity tries to conquer my brain.
Now sanity is overpowered.
My sanity plans to leave me;
So I write down mad, demented,
I jot down the lunatic things
my brain thought of trying.
I caged them in repeated sentences
As if the times of repetition
becomes the strength of the charm.
I imprisoned them in words.
I confine them in scribbles.
I locked them in writing to keep me sane.
But sometimes, I missed some bits.
They’d tie my sanity somewhere.
They want to take over.
I’d almost fall for them.
I’d almost do what they whisper.
But with the pen and paper,
I can suppress them,
And once again, I’d recover.